Something held back..

Did you skip a beat today..? Did you feel the need to take a step back down just to see where you landed yourself today with..? Did the anxiety spiked more than the usual today?

Well, here the universe humbly welcomes you to acknowledge the help you need to take. It's unbiased, inevitable, yet non-existent only if you deny to bow down and ask for a hand of trust. 

Thousands of thoughts run through your mind, and not even one you seem to concentrate upon. It's just the constant worry that doesn't let you bother about one particular stuff. And then when the tension surfaces, you just dust every discussion with yourself to suppression. But deep down even you know that all these emotions, secrets bottled up won't do you good, as you corrode from inside, your expression wears away. 

You try to find ways, sometimes even superficial ones that you hope might placate the condition. Such desperation to escape from these strings that tie you, doesn't let you be calm, even the gods must be having a tad bit of fun looking how terrified you have become of life around. Maybe you were to bear some karma, or maybe it's just that things are not supposed to be in your favor, whatever it is you can't find a way. Your situation feels sorry, don't know where you'd be some years fast forward from this present scenario, would you continue like this or leave all mundane philosophies or just which I think is the most probable, simply cease, to exist. 

                                                                               

                                            

Create hatred for a habit, a necessity, or any form of indulgence you want to get rid of, so that when you again encounter the same circumstances, that you're being tempted, relive through those moments when you underwent utter, brutal torture and the crushing pressure shall wear away.

Such is life, you're always dealing with every sort of shortcoming, when you're subjected to criticism that brings you down. These moments contract your space, your peace of mind forced under turbulence. These brain chemicals harm you, turning your will to overcome into a cycle of neglect.

But you know what, you’ve got to rise from this pit of ignorance, even if it demands you to deconstruct your identity, who cares if you reform from the burnt ashes, you just have to find some form of inspiration, some kind of motivation, to free yourself from such shackles of desperation.

I write this not as one who is defeated but the one who is again making an attempt to rise. So much for taking a backseat, take charge at once. Thoughts may come and go, they may alter but if your life gets derailed, it becomes almost improbable, insurmountable to backtrack and regain what was rightfully yours. This brain won’t control you, the chemicals won’t be able to diminish your conscience. You have to rise. You can’t get beaten. The soul would perish no more.

The condescending tone won’t overtake you, regain what's lost, what’s rightfully yours to have. This time the spell of contempt won’t work. The negativity won’t bring you down. No tear would be shed. No disappointments would be entertained. This time it's you and your time that’s been earned by you. Do not let it seep away. Contain.

                                                                               

                             

It's not that easy to break, handle yourself well, why be bothered with something so petty..? Why not sloosh away those fears, whose beads of imagination you bore in your mind.

Ah it's nothing, think about the never ending road, the vast mountains with polar lights burning through the skies. All beauty once captured, held to your heart can't be separated, you choose to diminish it's power so that it stays there, dormant, waiting for you to realize the importance of acknowledgement.

Just breathe, take a shallow walk, forget the arguments, the let-downs, the betrayals, breathe through the moments, the disappointments, which today yet may seem to carve your heart with pain while would show no resemblance to your future as you engulf yourself with a new light, new acquaintances, new smile that you everyday long to see glitter in the sunshine. Be calm, smile along, the road isn't smooth but it sure is worthy to stride on!

                                                                                

What's it to you? Empty mind, constant fiddling, purpose-less sight, how more uncontrollable can you be? Even the randomity starts to picture itself into logic when you're able enough to see the grand gesture of the universe. Those wide dark spaces of the untold, undiscovered, encompassing the infinite are the actual proof, that they're indeed destined to be filled, with matter that’ll collapse and be spread all over. The dark void which for now provides a bleak panorama is what exactly we come to this world with. Information, redundancy, emotions, faith, anticipation, all these aspects are fed into our empty yet potential self.

Why do we need to characterize our actions? What lesson do we learn from our pasts if we end up repeating the whole scenario again? Why can't we just breathe? Why can't we just let loose, just for one possible moment, close our eyes, block every noise and lay down under the silent night. Breathe in, breathe out, let the composure settle in and the miseries shall sway away. Accept that you were built as you are for a reason and try not to change.

To adapt is a necessity but even a necessity has its limits.

  

Until further happiness that you'd be lucky to be blessed with.. Sigh of damned luck..

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Please… shut the lights off, it's too bright!

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'In the hope of something powerful, I try to make a comeback from all the pitfalls of let-downs and depressions. Seek no dependence, you'll be buried alone'